July 15, 2009

One Year Anniversary

Today marks one year since we officially began the wait with Ethiopia. The past year has gone so fast. Having Apple here really made the wait seem easier since we had someone to help occupy our time.

A year ago we thought we would have a baby in 7-9 months. As usual though, the adoption process is very unpredictable. Several months ago, our agency announced that the wait was more like 12-18 months depending on where someone was on the waiting list. The reason for the extended wait times was not due to a lack of babies, but due to an increase in PAPs (potential adoptive parents). So, we settled in for the long haul. We're kind of professional waiters by this point!

I've wrote before about the waiting list and where we are on it. The list I am referring to is an unofficial list. It's not the full-blown list that our agency keeps. That list is a secret. They will not share what number we are on that list. Our agency has a message board online. Anyone who is adopting through CHSFS may view and post messages on that message board, but not every person who is waiting to adopt, chooses to join the message board. Those who do join are added to the unofficial list. Right now there are 97 people on the unofficial list, but according to our agency, there are actually 380 people waiting. Based on an Excel spreadsheet that estimates where someone is on the actual list, we are around #100.

Last week there was a ton of referrals given out by our agency....29 of them. That is huge in comparison to previous weeks. Today the agency announced that they are experiencing an increase in new referrals from Ethiopia. Many of those are for children from several new regions that our agency just started working with. What does that mean for us? On the unofficial list, we went from #35 to 26 in one week!!! That's a pretty big jump.

Where does that leave us? We are still hopeful to have a referral this year. I'm guessing November to December, but like usual, things change. It could be later or it could be sooner.

Someone asked if I was ready. The answer is YES and NO! I'm ready for this wait to be over. When we first started the process in 2005, I bought lots of girl clothes. As the China process got slower and slower, I stopped buying things. I haven't bought a single baby thing in three years I think. It seems very surreal to think that we will actually be getting a baby!!! I don't think we'll know what to do with ourselves when we finally get the call.

There is a Chris Rice song that I LOVE and it so appropriate for the adoption wait. It isn't talking about adoption, but just listen to the chorus of it. (Lyrics are below) The chorus starts at 55 seconds into it.

How far are You?
How close am I?
I know Your words are true when I don't feel them inside
Still I believe You'll never leave
So where are You now?

You're all I have
You're all I've known
Your breath is breathing in my soul
Still I am gasping, aching, asking,
Where are you now?

Cause I just want to be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer
But every minute takes and hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Till I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile!

My journey's here, but my heart is There
So I dream and wait, and keep the faith, while You prepare
Our destiny, till You come back for me
OH, please make it soon!